In a rut...

It seems like we have fallen into a rut around here. Since I pulled The Bean outta preschool twice a week because of the last major meltdown/panic attack he had we have been doing the same thing day in and day out. It's normal for Autistic's to want to follow the same patterns over and over but it sometimes becomes too much.

We go through the same thing with food, that is when he wants to eat. He used to take his one a day vitamin no problem now he's fighting me about it every day. So what are we doing taking a break for now and starting again next week.

It seems like everything is one step forward and 5 steps back. But all we can do is keep trying to move forward we will get where we are going sometime.

So next week we will be going back to preschool so we can get outta this rut, I know that we will be having melt downs and fits. I have a plan for that, it seems like I've made more plans in the past few years so we know what to do. Like not making the bean wait around for things to begin and when he gets there to have him engaged in something so we don't have to deal with the meltdown that will come.

I keep telling myself that one of these days life will become some what easier. I hope.

But then all I have is Hope and as long as I have hope I know that I can deal with the rut.