One of THOSE Days...

I guess that I haven't really let myself come to terms with alot of thing that involve the bean. I feel alot of guilt about him having Autism. I know that there is nothing that I could have done differently but I'm his mom and I'm suppose to protect him and make sure that every thing is perfect and that he has the best life ever.

But I didn't, I couldn't and I had no control over this. But he's my only child, and I know that he's going to have a hard life because of all of this. It breaks my heart sometimes. I know that there isn't anything that I could have done... and the only thing that I can do is all that I can to make sure that he has every possible advantage for a great life.

I feel a bit better getting this out, now I think that I will finish my cry and go on with my evening.

And the journey begins...

After waiting for what seems like forever we have the official diagnosis the Bean is Autistic. Not that it surprises me or his daddy but it does offer a kind of relief to know for sure and now we know what we have to start to do to get thing rolling for him.

So now our Journey is really starting down a road that we didn't expect. I'm sure that I will start to blog more about things... my frustrations and my Bean's gains.

Deep breathe in ... and exhale.
He's the same child today as he was yesterday and the day that he was born.
And loved just the same.