Ugggg...

So here we are it's a new year and I'm still dealing with the old crap. No matter what I do I will always be on the outs with someone. I have a habit of pissing people off without even trying. Take this one for an example. I missed my dad's birthday due to the fact that little man was up at 4 am and stayed up for the entire day. He was cranky, I was cranky and I know that meltdowns would be all over the place. People who don't live with a child with ASD have no idea what it is like. I can tell you but until you live in my apartment and are woken up by a child crying and you don't know why then you don't know.

I have been told that I am ungrateful because of all the things that my parents do for me. The very least that I could do was show up at a birthday dinner. It's not like we don't do this once or more a freaking month. I really can't take much more from that front.

To top it off Bean's dad is still looking for work and he will soon be out of Unemploment Insurance which leaves us screwed. He's gone on interviews but no call backs. All I can do is hope and pray that something will happen soon or god help me I'm going to have to do something that I never wanted to do.

Why is it that some people can fall in a pile of shit and come out smelling like a rose, and I fall in it and almost choke to death on the peanuts?