A storm is coming

And I don't just mean the one that is forecast for tomorrow. I mean the one that is going to happen in this apartment. The beans dad and I are heading in a direction that's not really good. We had our first really bad fight the other night. It's been a long time since we had one. Basically we both told each other where the door was if the other wasn't happy. I'm not leaving, he can go if he wants but he will not be taking MY son. So right now we are staying put. But if things don't change and I mean really change, he can go.

See we have been together now for 12 years, we are NOT married and we never will be. This way it's less paper work if I decided I want to leave. He will have to always pay for his son he won't get away from that. But I need a partner that is going to help me raise my son not just growl at him because he's not doing what he thinks that he should.

I don't think that it helps that we have been sick for 2 weeks and the job interview that he went on didn't pan out. I know that he's under stress about that but if he would have listened to me months ago and started to look for work instead of riding out his unemployment enjoyment we wouldn't be in this mess.

Ah life what to do?
One of these days I might just be able to figure it out.
But right now... Life Sucks... Tomorrow has to be better.