The Old, The New and the WTF?

So where do I start?
The old... we are potty training again which has been going pretty good over the past week. We haven't had any accidents and I haven't been using the reward system. I don't like doing that with the bean just because he become dependent on it and I have to break that habit as well. Which in turn drives me half outta my mind. My goal for him is to be trained by Christmas. If we make it that will be his Christmas gift to me. I just want to see him succeed at the training. He's 5 now and if he has to wear pull ups at night I can live with that. It's just having to change him when we are out in public and I don't want him to start school next year in a pull up. He has a hard enough road with ASD he doesn't need to be the kid in the diaper too.

The New... Today we went for a walk and it's pretty windy out so The Bean was in his winter coat and boots. As soon as we came through the door he took off his coat, boots and socks. I was in the kitchen getting lunch ready and the next thing I know he has all of his clothes off and is wiggling outta the pull up. He brought it to me and I threw it away, but I had to con him into putting on some under wear. That has been the big fight with him lately to put the underwear on. Thankfully I had his favorite snack in the house and he really wanted it so on went the underwear. 5 hours later they are still on.

The WTF?... We have one of the strangest behaviors yet to deal with now. When The Bean watches a program for the first time it's no problem at all but the second and third he knows where the parts of the movie are that he doesn't like so he puts his hands over his ears and hums so he doesn't have to hear them. I have been putting them on mute just to see if he notices or not. Sometime he does and others no. I don't know what to do with this at all and the helpful "team" of people that we have doesn't either. I just wish that someone could tell me what to do and it would work with him. But because all kids are different we have to just keep trying.

This also fall under the we can't go to the grocery store, walmart or any other place where there will be a large amount of children or I will be dealing with a full on melt down which leaves me so frazzled that I forget what I'm there for. When he hears another child yell he meltsdown and that even happens with his playgroup. Twice a week he will scream and be upset for 2 hours, I can't do anything to help because I'm on the other side of the 2 way mirror and I have to watch while the "professionals" work with my child.

It hurts like hell that I can't make this better for him and I can't protect him from the one thing that makes him hurt the most.

It breaks my heart knowing that for the rest of his life things are going to be so hard for him. Our Normal isn't the same as others and when The Bean is with me and so is my mum and he starts with the meltdown she trys to reason with him. It doesn't work, you really would be better off talking to the wall but she tries.

My life is crazy, and stressful but any one with kids knows what I'm talking about.

Rain... still

It's been raining for 5 days now, and I think that the Bean is going shack wacky. I did manage to get him out for a little drive yesterday with my mum. But that was only for about 45 mins. He heard a child yelling when we were at the grocery store so of course he wanted to come home with his daddy where it is safe. I know that one of these days I will be able to take him out without the melt downs that happen now.

The only thing about being locked in for so long is that I don't get out for my walk, which isn't good because of having diabetes I need to excersise. I really miss it when I can't do it. The weather person said that we should see some clearing by Thursday.

The Bean won't be happy tomorrow as he goes back to school. Well Preschool for special needs. I really have a hard time with him not wanting to go. But I make him go and that makes me the bad one but I know that by pushing ones of these days it will pay off.

I think that I will have him help me with the laundry soon. I am waiting for a delivery, test strips for my diabetes. Long story, I answered what I thought would be another solicitor phone call on Friday only to have it be the people that make my blood testing monitor. Well after doing a survey I told the lady that my strips had stopped working 10 days before they were to expire. So after talking to a tech we fixed the monitor and they are sending me out some test strips free. I just have to wait for them to get here today.

Well the daddy got another call about work, he just has to call them back and see what it's about. Really I don't think that he want's to go back to work at all but he has too and I would really like to go to work as well but I'm not sure how I'm suppose to work around the bean's schedule. One of these day's I will figure it out.